Why does every emotion boil down to sex and things like that? What's the meaning of love? Physical intimation? How many of you get intimate with God? What's that supposed to mean? Why can't you simply love anyone without thinking about physical and social relations?
Because it's the social fabric that tells us whom to love and whom to hate. I too hate plenty of people, based on my prejudice; my thoughts that are/were influenced by others. I grew up hating people, even dad. Just because I was told they were bad.
But love too has its own origins. You are told to love your near and dear based on how your parents feel about them, based on social norms.
Every relationship has a name, definition, and comes with a rule of do's and dont's.
If you try to break the rules, you are disgusting. You are not worth any respect from anyone.
You try hard to feed yourself the concept of family, society, good, and bad. But deep inside, you know it is just hypocrisy. You know you cannot follow what you preach. It simply doesn't fit in anywhere in the society. It's wrong. A "wrong" decided by society. Not by you.
You know your emotions are pure. But society? Relations? People who don't even care what you are?
What'll be the reaction of people who never cared when you were trying to arrange some kerosene oil so that you can feed your mom for the day?
What will those people say who were nowhere because your kid couldn't sleep because she was afraid of an aunt who was across Pacific ocean?
What would the people say who never extended a hand when there was no money even for a cup of tea?
What would the people say who only thought of you when they needed you?
Should you care about these people? Yes, you should. You should care about people and how they'll react......just because you can't shun the society and live in some cave.
I would like to leave this society but where will I get peace? Will I get peace in Varanasi, after leaving dad alone in Hyderabad? Can I adjust? Are there any options but to kill yourself bit by bit, on a daily basis?
It is easy to follow the society than to create examples. They are people who follow things laid in rock, never even thinking for a second that they can break the rock and allow new paths.
You can't beat society. Try deviating and they'll prove it to you that you have lost your mind. It is one you versus all of them. You just cannot win. You can't change collectively brainwashed people.
You can, at most, escape using distractions. And that's where religion enters... perhaps to gain another follower. Follow the books and stay at peace. Don't question anything. Just repeat what your elders repeated. Believe that you are born as a slave to the system. A system, that knows only taking away things you love. When did any system reward anyone who wanted to follow his or her heart?